Scream out

Just another ordinary day 

Everyone sink in ordinary day

Everyone think that nothing will happen in the ordinary day

But there are soul that crying

Cry that someone would jump out from their ordinary life

And help

I'm alone screaming

Scream and hope that someone would realize me

Scream and hope that someone would step out for me

Scream and hope that someone will comfort me

And I scream until I'm out of voice

And I'm still alone here

With tears still dropping

People walk pass by me

They saw that my heart is bleeding

Some of them even are my friends

But they choose to ignore

And continue with their life

While I'm still standing alone

And my wound is still bleeding

I'm alone screaming

Scream and hope that someone would realize me

Scream and hope that someone would step out for me

Scream and hope that someone will comfort me

And I scream until I'm out of voice

And I'm still alone here

With tears still dropping

With the wounds, Im still struggling

Struggling why I'm still standing here

Struggling why my wound is still bleeding

Struggling why my tears still dropping

And yet, I choose to continue my life with it

Although the hope are fragile, although the dream perish

I choose to continue walk with it

And hope that,

I would meet you one day

To save me for continue my dream, to continue with my hope

I hope that the day would come.

And, I'm still alone here......with tears......

Sleepness nite

Long time no blog. But the reason that I install back blog is for me to release. Although I always use Twitter, but it allow only few words, while my stress is more than the limited character that allow me to key in at Twitter.

Another sleepless Nite, and I guarantee that I sure will ve regret of not sleeping early at tomolo morning. Nite is the scarist moment while the brain will keep pop out alot of things which can make u keep thinking and can't sleep. Today it happen to me again.

Fat issue ia always one of the main cause that make me keep thinking and end up I can't sleep. Or sometimes I will wet my pillow while overthink. Why m I so fat? Yes I like to eat and I can't diet. Although I try sooo many times, but I alway give up half way. I seriously think that PPL are evil when they heard someone gonna start keep fit, they will keep stop the person by telling me that "you are not fat,,u juz big size". Excuse me? What is the difference of it, I think when u saw big size PPL in mall, ur 1st impression or description sure will be "that fat lady". Stop telling me lie. Stop demotivate me. Stop it. I do not want to listen it anymore.

Stop here. Really need to get some sleep, else tomorrow I will be half dead. My work is not done yet.

Though of the day: "motivate PPL sometimes will cause negative effect, although u think ur words can motivated them, but it actually hurt them"